you died

I don’t even know you...Do I?I mean, I remember pieces of you.I remember your smell and the way your home felt. I remember your laugh and the way you held your glass of wine and the way you looked when you were having a good time.And I remember you liked to have a good time. I think that’s why I loved about you so much....You showed me what it was like to have fun. To be in love. To feel loved. But, sometimes I wonder if maybe I made you up?Or maybe what I remember of you is only like 1% of you and maybe the rest of you wasn’t what I thought. The sides of you I didn’t see.The sides I didn’t get to know because you weren’t around much.Cuz you guys always had be down south, didn’t ya?Which always made me wonder...What was so good about down south?And I aspired to find out!And I did.I went to your favorite place, and I’ll be honest I didn’t see why it was so great. And so I don’t think it was worth always leaving me...if you know what I mean. But maybe you just had different priorities then.Maybe you didn’t love the way I thought you did. Maybe you were just the kind of person that just did your own thing...And maybe that’s why she’s the way she is and I’m the way I am. Maybe we all needed you and you didn’t want to be needed so you left us in constant disappointment.And I confess...I’ve been in that state of being since you left.But I digress.I just wanted to say I miss you like crazy, and sometimes I wonder why? It’s been so long since you died sometimes I wonder if you were even real or just another illusion in my mind's eye?SOCIAL MEDIA // @ArtistSarahLong artistsarahlong.com artistsarahlongstore.com  EMAIL // artistsarahlong@gmail.com